Ghosting You

The time has come
To accept what has happened,
Eliminate confusion,
Resolve uncertainty,
Be comfortable with it.
We are not connected,
We never were,
Though my mind deceives me
Every night, as I’m reminded
What could have been.
I lay in the dark
Imagining you watching me,
Always watching me,
As I watch you.
But it’s about me,
This recurring dream,
This nightmare I haven’t reconciled,
Teaching me to let you go,
In body and spirit
Never to see you again.
I am not for you,
I will stop watching you,
Pretending I love you,
That I’m someone important
To someone I never knew.
Be gone from my dreams,
Vanish like the daylight
You so often gave me
When my spirit
Wandered in darkness.
People don’t see me
The way I see you,
Your pictures posted on the feed
As if they were mine for the taking.
It was all I wanted back then,
To have a picture of you,
To hold in my hands forever,
An imprint of desire
Tattooed on my palms,
Now enshrined by my eyes
That glitter before the screen.
It will take all my strength
Not to visit you,
To release the power
You bewitched over me,
That inspired me to travel,
Foolishly imitating
Your fragments of impression,
To not become ghosted
By my own feed of shame.