In the gym I started running hoping to get attention, the crystal oceans in your eyes bonding to my broken skeleton.
I tried to go fast but couldn’t, they were taunting me, the ones who ignored me, the ones who loved you.
Go away, I said, I never wanted to talk to any of you, just let me be, I am a runner, let me run. When they followed me, I felt noticed for the wrong reason, turned out of the gym, away from you, the horde falling behind despite my numb feet.
You’re gone now, a thousand miles across the distance of fjords, green islands, mountains, all the way past the rim of my heart.
Onto the track I stumbled, knowing you were following me, looking for me, like the others, a game, I was just a game.
But then your blue shirt traipsed up the 100-meter ribbon glowing in parallel waves that rolled with your hair.
The fear escaped me, neutralized by the light in your eyes, that incredible light, blue shirt and smiles and waves of joy illuminating my concealed face, the others following yet stumbling out of the picture, out of my mind forever.
You found me, I said, you finally found me.
I tried to go fast but couldn’t, they were taunting me, the ones who ignored me, the ones who loved you.
Go away, I said, I never wanted to talk to any of you, just let me be, I am a runner, let me run. When they followed me, I felt noticed for the wrong reason, turned out of the gym, away from you, the horde falling behind despite my numb feet.
You’re gone now, a thousand miles across the distance of fjords, green islands, mountains, all the way past the rim of my heart.
Onto the track I stumbled, knowing you were following me, looking for me, like the others, a game, I was just a game.
But then your blue shirt traipsed up the 100-meter ribbon glowing in parallel waves that rolled with your hair.
The fear escaped me, neutralized by the light in your eyes, that incredible light, blue shirt and smiles and waves of joy illuminating my concealed face, the others following yet stumbling out of the picture, out of my mind forever.
You found me, I said, you finally found me.
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