Emotional Cleansing

     Lately I have been practicing a method of emotional cleansing that helps me understand myself better. I do this anywhere from once a day to every three days. It has helped me get more in touch with my emotions by listening to my body. Often an emotion becomes trapped in our bodies, typically as an expression of that area. For example, you might feel tension in your hand from "needing a helping hand", or in your back from "not having a backbone/spine". Other times emotional tension will manifest in an area that has been physically neglected, like where there is poor posture or inadequate stretching.
    The goal with emotional cleansing is to "open the gates" of your emotions; to become fully aware of them; to hear what your body is saying about them; to let them out by allowing their energy to take physical control of your body. Crying and laughing are two manifestations of this release. Others might be jerking, grunting, whining, or moaning. 

    You do this by calming yourself down, typically through meditation. Meditation isn't always necessary because sometimes the emotion surfaces without even trying. You need to entice the emotion to move out of your body through psychic invitation. Emotions need to move, not stay in place. All you have to do is close your eyes, search for any tension in your body, and let the underlying emotion "speak" to you. You don't have to fully understand what the emotion is, just let it flow naturally. It could be a mix of emotions that doesn't have a name, or that only pertains to you, as most of them are entwined by cords of memory. The most important thing is to let your nervous system take hold of the emotion and express it naturally through the body, either by movement, sound, or both.

    I will now share some examples of my breakthroughs with emotional cleansing. One involved the release of stress that had manifested as a clenched jaw and teeth grinding. During the cleanse my jaw became loose, I started grunting and felt the impatience of stress come out as energy in the form muscle spasms around my mouth. It would probably look scary to an observer, but I felt a lot better after doing it. Another example was with my eyes. I released exhaustion that had been repressed in there, from strain and overuse. I rolled them around, massaging the muscles with my hands, moaning as I circled around, letting the exhaustion escape.

    A fascinating one is an emotional memory that was repressed since early childhood, and this is how I learned about an emotion I never knew I had before. It's a complicated mix of fear and anger, probably closer to panic, from when I was neglected as an infant. Sometimes when I needed comfort, my parents would ignore me to let me "cry it out" because they did not have the empathy or energy to provide it. I was forced to repress that emotion, like millions of others. The rejection stayed in my heart for years, until I became aware of my body and let it surface, manifesting as a mysterious pain that I have always wondered about. Letting it out involved not just crying, but a vicious panic attack. As I was feeling it, the repressed memory came to life, if not in my mind, then at least in my body. I became the wounded infant again, healing myself by letting it flow out of me.

    Another time I projected to Glacier National Park in Montana. This was my favorite place as a child. My angels had invited me to explore a different emotion I'd repressed, this time from my parents' divorce when I was 11 years old. I'd learned not to show any emotion from the divorce because my parents wouldn't talk about it, and I didn't want to choose sides. In this vision, I found my 8-year-old self on Logan Pass, sullen and sad. I provided support by "reparenting" the child. I asked him why he picked this spot to reveal his grief. He said it was the only place he could ever remember my parents being happy together. The surprise came when the whole family showed up and we all reconciled. I let out a lengthy cry that resulted in a total catharsis, rivaling the grief from my deepest losses. Processing that divorce was 30 years overdue; getting it out of my system made me feel so much lighter and healthier.

    Through emotional cleansing, you can regulate your emotions better and explore repressed ones like I did.  Letting it out involves yielding your control to the emotion, so that your body can fully release the energy you kept inside for so long. It might feel weird or scary at first, but it's worth a try if you want to feel better. I'm glad I went through with it. If you decide to give it a try, good luck!